Definition: 'Being in a state of fertility.'
It's my definition of the word, cos it's my word! And if you begin looking into a dictionary definition of fertility or infertility it's quite clinical, uninspiring stuff!! Future posts will explore and play with this idea of In Fertility, for now though, just a bit of background info for those who do not know it!
This blog's part of my next step in life. The step I've been seeking in the last few years.
If you've read the intro's to my stories on my website (www.womanwalking.com) you'd know about my need for change......something new and different from what I'd been experiencing. I wrote my stories on this website with the hope of finding out what this may be......and I think I've nearly got it!
Firstly, since publishing this website a year ago, I've made my family (that's 9 yr old twin boys and their dad, my husband) leave a comfortable suburban lifestyle in Perth, WA and cram into a small camper trailer to travel around Australia. Fortunately, for me they didn't struggle too much with the change, even though it was entirely driven by my need for change, not necessarily theirs. I am blessed that they follow and trust my feelings and visions when I get them.
Especially my man. He left a good job as a manager. He's left his elderly parents in Perth.... and his daughter. He's left a comfortable house without mosquitoes or dirt to contend with. He's left the couch and a television to zone out with when needed. He left a tiny little thought in the back of his head that was considering being 'normal' and working to save money to buy a house or something 'sensible' like that.
He's a brave man....
But if he didn't come I would have gone crazy and probably left on my own...I'm a woman of fire, you see, and when I need to go , I need to go.....for reasons even I don't know! Some call this 'running away'. I call it doing what's needed in order to stay sane!!
So we've left and I'm 'better' in the sense of not feeling stuck or stagnant. Travel helps me move things around in my soul and discover things I cannot know by staying in one place and doing the same thing day in and day out. Different places teach me different things and I've always been lucky to be guided to the places I need to be in order to find what is needed.
Where I am now is a little haven amongst madness. It's called Lane Cove River Tourist Park and it's in a National Park just out of Sydney. It's a slice of land surrounded by highways and freeways and 5 mins away from huge industrial, residential and business complexes.
But within this piece of land are ancient rocks, a river ( albeit a very polluted one!) and some beautiful, relatively pristine bushland. And it's been while walking through this land the idea of In Fertility has been born. Maybe the land has inspired the concept, given that it's a surviving slice of life amongst all the concrete that surrounds it! It represents fertility against all odds!
Or maybe I've dreamed up In Fertility because its medical counterpart 'infertility' is always at the back of my mind, after 3 years of not conceiving a baby when really, really wanting to! Maybe this blog and my travelling around Australia is just about sorting all that out inside me....who knows?
All I do know is that this is what my next step's about. Exploring this word In Fertility.
Writing it. Breathing it. Living it. Sharing it...then seeing what happens next! xxx